Past glory may be uplifting, but failure is what makes you grow.
I’m really proud of a talk I did in Victoria BC at Social Media Camp a few weeks ago. Re-watching the video is weird– there are good parts where I feel I was doing well, and bad parts where I was slower. Being a perfectionist means you’re always thinking of what you could have done better, of course, but largely I think it was a good show.
But here’s what’s interesting. While I watch the bad parts, I still cringe, like they’re happening right now. It’s like watching an episode of Curb Your Enthusiasm, it’s horrible.Â I’ve watched clips like this many times before, and I always get that feeling–the sitcom cringe.
Of course it’s absolutely useless to cringe during one of these moments. But we can’t help it, even if it’s not real. Eventually, it started giving me a feeling like “ok, clearly it wasn’t that bad. I survived, didn’t I?”
I have a theory: the more you review past failure, the more it strengthens you. If I read old blog posts from 5 years ago, I realize what a train wreck I was then. I have access to the exact feelings, the writing/audio/video, how badly I dressed… I have access to it all. And yet, I made it, I handled it fine. I made it. So now, it’s just a big joke.
Go take a look at some of your old posts. You can go to your blog, or Facebook, or whatever else you use. Listen to one of your old podcasts. Look back at what’s happened, and what you’ve become since then.
We never see growth happen, but it does. Look back at yourself.Â ï»¿I think you’ll find it relieving.