You have no choice but to be yourself– so you can do it reluctantly, or proudly.
Either apologize as you do it, or do it with all your heart and every faith in yourself you can muster. That’s the choice.
In learning to do this, you might transition from being awkward and uncomfortable to strong and certain. That’s natural. Take your time, and don’t expect to be perfect.
Small successes will lead to small confidence, which will lead to bigger successes. And so on.
No matter how you feel today, keep on going. You’ll get there.